December 2010
37 posts
Top 2010 moments
In no particular order.
- 9 New Found Glory shows in 11 days, which included completing one of my life goals of seeing my favorite band on my birthday. They even wished me Happy Birthday on stage. I’ll never forget that. Ever. Also befriending the boys in Fireworks and falling in idolized love with Dave. Big things from this band. 12 total shows of this tour? Not too bad. Plus two more...
Doing my best to move on. Starting new. I had the gut feeling from the very start and I should have followed it. I will not be the fool. The best thing for me to do is to forget and go forward, back away and find a better. I keep trying to deny my anger with myself, to say that I’m better, and to say it’s you who will be sorry but deep down I am mad, I am at a low point, and...
I went to Temple yesterday for the first time in what can only be years. I never thought I’d be someone who could feel so lifted from religion. Though I always take pride in my faith, I have always observed it more as a culture than a belief in an almighty power. When we went over the Mourner’s Kaddish, I balled like a baby - but after that moment, no more tears were shed for the...
Fact: I hate the song ‘Decode’ but right now it could not be more fitting.
I don’t know where this all went wrong. Last night you tried to put the blame on me. You told me I was being mean. I feel like there’s just so much that’s misunderstood in this whole situation and I want to take back so many moments, rewind, and make everything the way it used to be. I was better off admiring you from a far.
I’ve been dreading and anticipating this day all at the same time. Just to sit things down, just to work them out. But I’m terrified that you’re going to let me down worse than I can imagine. You made me feel real stupid, standing there, you spilling everything in such an inappropriate environment. Real stupid. I swore to myself I would never be this girl, but you’ve...
I’ve never felt so sober, I’ve never felt the low that I feel tonight. Your words made everything drag on and on. Is this really happening? Oh God I think I just ruined my life.
Dwelling part #39242
One was a loser, one is so much more than me, he just doesn’t realize it.
musicistheanswer:
saramazing:
Just realized that in one year, two men have told me I’m too good for them. I never thought I’d be punished for my success.
Can’t tell you how many times I heard this one. I realized they were right (mostly because they were losers and I was lowering my standards). Keep your...
Dwelling part #39242
Just realized that in one year, two men have told me I’m too good for them. I never thought I’d be punished for my success.
That came out of nowhere. I wasn’t expecting that any time soon. Six months ago when I first met you, I told myself that no one like you could ever be remotely attracted to me the way I wanted you to. Then I got to know you and you became a very important part of my life. The feelings I never wanted to have, because of who you are and what I’ve seen and what our friends are going...
I knew this week was coming, I knew this moment would happen. “Hear You Me” by Jimmy Eat World is the first song that comes to mind when I think of this time of year. It came on my shuffle a few minutes ago and I just crawled in my bed, hid under a blanket, and cried and cried and cried.
So lucky, so strong, so proud. I never said thank you for that.
In one week I will be honoring the second anniversary of my Grandmother’s death. This may be the hardest time of the year for me, especially not being with my Dad. I don’t celebrate Christmas, yet it will never be the same for me again. Christmas Eve, she passed. Christmas Day, I was on a flight to Cleveland. Day after Christmas, I went to my first funeral. I’ll never forget...
Two days ago I said I was happy that my life was back on track as far as you were concerned but now I miss you more than ever.
Also, what makes you think I care? Please stop. Please go away. Please stop thinking you’re such a huge part of my life. Please stay out of my business. Please don’t cry to me every single time something goes wrong. Please don’t tell me every single detail that you overanalyze and skew. I mean this in the nicest way possible - I can’t stand you.
Sometimes I think I’ve lost myself. If you told me two years ago that I was going to be this girl, I wouldn’t believe you. I would be too insecure to think it would happen. But I’m only getting half of what I want. It fills some sort of void, but now I want to experience that missing half more than ever before.
Most people have 1000 wishes for Christmas; a...
Though I don’t really celebrate Christmas, it will never be the same for me. My grandmother passed away on Christmas Eve, two years ago. I flew to Cleveland on Christmas and went to my first funeral the day after. She was a breast cancer survivor but it was ultimately bad health and old age that took her life. She fought through so much and I could only hope to be half the woman she was. ...
The new Fireworks EP
I’m not really crazy about it either. Their full-length is just SO good and I always hate the weird transition after a good album. I do like Seasick but that’s technically not a new song.
chasingcoolness:
I’m not really digging it. The first track is decent and after that, it’s a little bit on the boring side. Eh.
