All I'm losing is me.

10. Radio Adelaide 

9. Ballad for the Lost Romantics 

8. Forget My Name

7. Coming Home 

6. The Great Houdini 

5. Something I Call Personality 

4. 2s & 3s

3. Too Good To Be

2. 47

1.  Sincerely Me

rickioftherovers:

10 - Hit Or Miss

9 - Never Sometimes

8 - Truth Of My Youth

7 - Sucker

6 - Listen To Your Friends

5 - On my Mind

4 - It’s Not Your Fault

3 - Sonny

2 - Something I call Personality

1 - Broken Sound

Wow, that was really difficult. No doubt it will change at some point when I think of any songs I’ve left out.

My mom sent me a message this morning saying that she just opened my grad invite that I sent to her in March.  She said she’s proud and that I was beautiful.  I won’t write back.  I wrote back once and it was the toughest decision I ever had to make. 

I told my dad.  He told my step mom.  She sent me a text saying that my mother was at my graduation and that she loves me.  It’s true, she’s my true mother, not just the “step.”  

But yet I’m sitting here, welled-up eyes, heart-sunken, and thought-provoked.  That was the biggest day of my life, and she wasn’t there.  And neither was my brother.  Families should have to sign contracts on the date of birth, not just certificates.  I will show up to my children’s graduations, and elementary school plays, and birthday parties, and weddings.  I’ll be there the day their children are born, the day their first love breaks their heart, and the day they achieve their biggest dreams.  I won’t miss out.  Because life is not about missing out - it’s about being a part of it.  I will not be her.